Wednesday, August 18, 2010

I love grocery shopping

i went grocery shopping the other day and found this extraordinary fruit! i had always liked dragon fruit juice but never knew what the fruit looked like--now i know!
i am just in love with the color. isn't it amazing that something so vibrant and saturated could be naturally produced?! who needs artificial coloring!

if you've never tried one, i definitely recommend it. it has a texture kind of similar to watermelon, and the seeds are soft and don't get stuck in your teeth. i just cut it in half and ate it with a spoon right out of the skin like a kiwi. yum!

Monday, August 16, 2010

"Her voice, its like Buttah"

in utah my aunt and uncle introduced me to a movie called What's Up Doc?. i wasn't too sure about the young Barbra Streisand, but after watching it i can say that it was so funny and quick witted, i loved it! since then i've been on a Bab's kick and have been watching lots of her early movies like The Way We Were and Funny Girl. i never really cared for her contemporary work, but i had no idea what a comedic genius she is! her characters were wonderful.
i've also been getting in to late 60s and early 70s style makeup and hair, and boy did she have the look! i think she was absolutely gorgeous. i don't know why, but i love the combination of her nose and facial structure with the thick eyeliner and eyelashes. weird to notice, i know, but i wish i could wear my makeup like that these days!

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Major Blessings

well, first let me say that Heavenly Father is absolutely amazing and is always blessing me even if i don't deserve it.

the past couple weeks have been pretty difficult. my dad and his sister pretty much ripped me apart when i told them about joining the peace corps. they were so not happy with me...with my dad its nothing new really; unless i join the air force he honestly isn't proud of or happy with anything i do. they also began to bash on temples and temple marriages, so i know that that is another battle down the road.
i love my dad, but i really hate that he knows nothing about me and we have nothing in common. truly we are night and day. it makes me sad. i wish i could talk to him about things, and tell him about things im excited about, or have him give me a blessing, or talk about the gospel, but he doesnt take me seriously and mocks almost everything i do. its a shame really.
without going into the nasty details, im having a hard time at home. often i feel like i don't fit in, that im just different. i feel alone alot.

the past few days ive been praying so hard for God to soften my heart towards my family, but to also help ease the pain and sadness i feel. ive been praying for friends that i can turn to when i need a break (for the past three years i have spent summer virtually alone; i dont have any old friends from high school and only acquaintances from church).
God answered my prayers, and people from my stake that i knew in high school began talking to me and inviting me to things. i was so grateful, but at the same time, it was a little tough...i mean i hadn't seen them in years so i didn't have much to talk to them about, i don't go to BYU like the rest of them, which comes up more than you would think..., and i just noticed that i wasn't meshing with them as well as i do with people at SVU. i wanted to participate and have friends so badly, but it was a bigger adjustment than i thought.
i continued to pray for help, and God didn't give up on me and continued to bless me. several times this week when i really needed a friend or someone to ask me to sit with them at church when i was alone, someone was there. it happened at church today and i just sat there repeating in my head, "thank you, thank you, thank you".

I don't know if any of this made sense, but after this week i have seen that Heavenly Father is so loving and is blessing my life constantly. i also learned however, that if we ask for something and He gives it to us, we cannot refuse that gift when its presented. If i pray for just one friend, and someone comes along and invites me to something, i can't say no. like i said, its an adjustment, but if i have faith to consider asking for help, i've got to have faith that what God has suggested or given to me will work.
Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...